i’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’m sorry.
my heart splits, a heavy kind of hurt.
a dripping out of my body kind of hurt, i’m sorry.
for creating space between us, i’m sorry.
for feeling distance as pain, i’m sorry.

when you give someone your heart,
it is not in addition to yours.
it is in place.
it is fragment
for fragment.

i have turned myself blue
from holding my breath
on what i know is not true.
i have turned myself blue
from suffering what i saw
and i turned that truth
into comfort.

i am home in the cold
i am home in the loss
but you were not.
at this moment
i’m not sure
you know where you are

soon from now i promise
you will find yourself somehwere else
and i hope you forgive me
because i’m sorry.
i’m sorry.
i’m sorry.